Two side of me

Have you ever felt the feeling when you fight with yourself ? I mean like YOURSELF . It's quite confusing when it happens . I dunno , maybe it's the devil and the angel that's fighting and i am in between , ok so let's don't get into the religious that much i don't want to blow the facts . I'm not an ustazah to judge all this . I'm just going to let you guys know how it goes .


Firstly when you're judging someone like their dress up . Wearing a tudung but wears a tight jeans n short sleeve shirt . Some part of me (A) says ' Gosh look at that girl what kind of a bitch she was wearing a tudung with a dress like that , she should be ashamed of herself ' . But some part of me (B) says ' Enough with that nas you have no right to judge he , I mean look at yourself , do you have what it takes to be called a ustazah to judge her , you got the wrong track yourself'' . To be completely honest i'm on the B side because whatever she or I said is true . I am no ustazah , I have no rite to judge anybody's style or in whatever they do . To me only those people who have what it takes could so that . I mean it's like , who am i ? . Let those people be because they are none of my business . But sometimes do give some of my advise in certain stuff  like 'Hey girl , your chess seems to be in expos-ion' which i said it in a good way not yelling in front of a public   to humiliate my friends , and yes , i only did it with my friends , to strangers ? naaah ,  i don't think i have that guts to do so . I'm afraid that i could get a good response or 'hey , go to hell!' kind of shit response .


Secondly about people's appearance or beauty . The A of me says that ' God look at that horrible face of her ' u were much prettier nas' . And the B of me says ' naas , shut your mouth up , come on do you think you are that beautiful ? Even though she got that kind of face but at least she got the good inside her , look at yourself and try to judge yourself' And for obvious i completely agree with the B me . It is true , i am not the angel and not to brag but i am not the devil also . I shouldn't do that , i should not talk that way . It isn't what ive been thought ever since i was a little girl .


So this is it , actually to get to the conclusion i can say that the A of me isn't me , and i admit i don't want to be that type of bitch because i have my own weakness . I am not perfect . I'm just me and there's no reason for me to hate myself . I love myself but that doesn't mean that i could brag about myself to public or people . It's ok for you to compliment yourself , it's just that don't over the limit like bragging about your beauty to people ,  people will end up hating you because you can only see the beauty in you . So balance both of it and make sure it fits the situation and most importantly , mind your words coz some people just throw whatever they wanted to say without thinking about what people feels . That is bad . Really really bad . Take note of my advice's coz it might give you some hint to consider of what i said . Don't judge a book by it's cover .


Advice's to me or your own self ? take a look at the mirror , judge yourself before you judge people . Find the weakness in you then you find people's weakness and nobody's perfect . be thankful of what you got . "segala kebaikan yang dkurniakan pada kita adalah milik Allah " - whatever the gift that we got is the property of Allah . Im not saying im good , im not saying i'm bad either . Im just me .


Peace out =)

Boredom

Ok now i am officially bored so i thought maybe i could type something and babble something because what's is my mind if u ask me the answer would be EMPTY . Because that's what;s in my mind and while im typing here i am trying to figure out what should i post today because as i told you before my head is EMPTY . Damn im bored . lucky I got this lappy an boyfie n frens to keep me company . This is supposed to be a splendid holiday but it end up to be a super-bored holiday of my entire life . before the holiday started my friends keeps talking about their family plans for holiday and i was like 'owww' 'greaaaat' 'okaaaay' 'awesooooome' bcoz u knw why , i didn't even get a chance to even take one step foot out of my house since my dad keeps warning me to stay alert with my study so that i could be prepared enough for THE SPM which is the reason why ive been grounded for a year if im not mistaken and i didn't blame him for that because i am actually a lazy butt girl touch a book but to be frankly honest actually i did work hard on my study it's just that i don't want to show it off because why should i that could make me look even more stressful instead am i rite people ? So let's just get to the subject i'm nas nasuha bte abd razak is talking crap rite now and still try to find what topic or subject that im going to post rite now and yes i got one topic and that is NOTHING . Kbyeeeee

Try To Make A Better Way Of Life

I want to graduate 

I want to become a doctor 

I want to become an artist 

I want to be a novelist 

that's my ambition for now . looking forward to get into it =) 

Friend ??

When you try to be friend or find a friend , would you care about the status of them , money-able or not ? would you care where they come from , a palace or a cheap rented house ? would you care about who they are, a hot or cold VVIP ? and would you care about their beauty ? I'm stressing this article to those who does care about these selection stuff . because you are such a hypocrite creature .

I just don't understand why this must be happening these days . I just don't get it why they are so narrow minded  . What's the big deal of having a 'skema' friend or 'not that hot' friend ? Ow ya , you want to get or maintain that 'hot" status of yours . But does that status brings you away to the future ? No . Come on , open your mind fellas . I've been through some situation before and it's kind of sucks because when you try to be a friend , i mean good friend , you were treated like a garbage or a furniture somewhere . You guys should realize that finding a true friends is getting hard nowadays because the world is chasing money , power and ambition . They should have a sense of humanity or in Malay we say 'kemanusiaan' . Except for someone that have that negative stuff inside them , that kind of people you should be treat in a way you treat me .

My question is why , and if u ask me why am i taking this seriously , it's because it happens to me and yes admit i am not a hot person n letting you know that i could be your true friend or at least a ordinary friend , not to brag but that's the way i BE a friend , i dont care about how rich they are because a FRIEND don't cost a shit of money , I don't care how 'hot' they were because the status is just a temporarily and it does not lead me to the future . And I don't care how beauty they were because they're my friends anyway anyhow so i accept them just the way they are .   One word for you guys . HYPOCRITE

Peace out 

INCOMIIIIIG !

Exam is around the corner... it always been . so put aside all the problems and issues shall we ? im focusing here . This is not the time to ask me a question that is beyond the subject or out of the subject so lets just drop all those pathetic stuff that would only make my mind freakin' pist for God sake . Im tired with all this issues problems conflicts or what ever shit that is . I just want to focus on my study ,that's it . It's quite satisfying when u just put ur minds on ur study coz u juz focus on one particular thing n the next day u will feel like a genius . hahak! but the temptation is always there of coz...... like now im online - ing .. im suppose to be in my fizik's imaginary world like now but since my brother left his laptop open so i decide to take a 'little' sneeeek peek on my fb instead . It is suppose to be a 'for a while' online but it end up to be a all evening online . for those who experienced it will understand n feel what im sayin' , I bet it for sure .

other than that one of the temptation that keeps me drowning and hypnotized was . FOOOOOOD . Ive been eating a lot lately .. And everybody keeps calling me bulat =.= . I can live with that . Ala what's the big deal poon , after SPM u guys will see the old nas back waat ( there goes my broken rojak english) . Btw . SPM candidates needs a lot of energy and nutrient to keep da mind working , rite (but not by eating 24/7 naaas) . ANd last but not least the temptation to sleep . That is one of the reason why i accompanymyself with a music so that i will remain awake while study , but at the same time i will keep myself away from my pillow n babybear coz it will lead me to a snoring sleeping beauty . So this is the story that i would loove to share for today . Just for today , n i feel that something will came up soon but i seems to be in curious track .

but WHATEVER it is NOTHING can EVER STOP me from FOCUSING on my STUDY . GTg now . my books and foods are calling me . so need to make a smart decision . damn =.= . tata for now . peace out

Cutest Thing On Earth

Precious Delila . Delila Hisham . No other words can describe her cuteness n beauty . Wish I could hold her in my arms . Even though you are far away , you are always in our heart , same goes as abg hisham n kakak ^_^ . We love you !!!

p/s : didn't post that much because I was too speechless to see her cute and pretty face =)

Concern

 Should I be concern about that ? I mean it is just a novel that tells everything about the country's citizens,culture,how they get united,their flow of life. It's an old story and it is a true story . Didn't mean to insult . Let bygone be bygone . What's with the chaos? what's with the burning book ? To be honest , i find it interesting story and it keeps the united alive and it is supposed to be one , not to bring up a chaosity . This book brings back the old memory of Malaysia . I find it interesting because of the language , the way he tells the story makes me feel the story . it brings out tears . And I couldn't put it down once I read it . We should the writer an applause for producing a book that open people's mind and eyes about our country and let them feel how they survive and behold to their pride and life even though boundaries keeps coming through . The patriotism is there for sure . There maybe some misunderstanding about the novel because that word but i don't think that's a big deal because he was just trying to tell the whole teenagers about the Indian people's life and rythm of life , their path . Not to insult them . They are matured enough to think and be considerate about that .

Poor the writer been treated that way . They owe him an apologies . I mean huge one . Through this novel i got my spirit of patriotism back because after all this time I don't really get into it with all this country kond of stuff , i used to think that , as long as live in a peace world , that's enough . But with this novel i get to know more about Malaysia , about the life of Malayan , Chinese , Indian , all of it in one novel . I think all of other teenagers feel and thought the same thing as me . I had a friend who is rarely and lazy enough to hold a book , but when she knew about the book , she read it and she loves it . Its amazing how the book can attract teenagers attention just by reading the title . Because the title tells everything . Im proud for that .