Have you ever felt the feeling when you fight with yourself ? I mean like YOURSELF . It's quite confusing when it happens . I dunno , maybe it's the devil and the angel that's fighting and i am in between , ok so let's don't get into the religious that much i don't want to blow the facts . I'm not an ustazah to judge all this . I'm just going to let you guys know how it goes .
Firstly when you're judging someone like their dress up . Wearing a tudung but wears a tight jeans n short sleeve shirt . Some part of me (A) says ' Gosh look at that girl what kind of a bitch she was wearing a tudung with a dress like that , she should be ashamed of herself ' . But some part of me (B) says ' Enough with that nas you have no right to judge he , I mean look at yourself , do you have what it takes to be called a ustazah to judge her , you got the wrong track yourself'' . To be completely honest i'm on the B side because whatever she or I said is true . I am no ustazah , I have no rite to judge anybody's style or in whatever they do . To me only those people who have what it takes could so that . I mean it's like , who am i ? . Let those people be because they are none of my business . But sometimes do give some of my advise in certain stuff like 'Hey girl , your chess seems to be in expos-ion' which i said it in a good way not yelling in front of a public to humiliate my friends , and yes , i only did it with my friends , to strangers ? naaah , i don't think i have that guts to do so . I'm afraid that i could get a good response or 'hey , go to hell!' kind of shit response .
Secondly about people's appearance or beauty . The A of me says that ' God look at that horrible face of her ' u were much prettier nas' . And the B of me says ' naas , shut your mouth up , come on do you think you are that beautiful ? Even though she got that kind of face but at least she got the good inside her , look at yourself and try to judge yourself' And for obvious i completely agree with the B me . It is true , i am not the angel and not to brag but i am not the devil also . I shouldn't do that , i should not talk that way . It isn't what ive been thought ever since i was a little girl .
So this is it , actually to get to the conclusion i can say that the A of me isn't me , and i admit i don't want to be that type of bitch because i have my own weakness . I am not perfect . I'm just me and there's no reason for me to hate myself . I love myself but that doesn't mean that i could brag about myself to public or people . It's ok for you to compliment yourself , it's just that don't over the limit like bragging about your beauty to people , people will end up hating you because you can only see the beauty in you . So balance both of it and make sure it fits the situation and most importantly , mind your words coz some people just throw whatever they wanted to say without thinking about what people feels . That is bad . Really really bad . Take note of my advice's coz it might give you some hint to consider of what i said . Don't judge a book by it's cover .
Advice's to me or your own self ? take a look at the mirror , judge yourself before you judge people . Find the weakness in you then you find people's weakness and nobody's perfect . be thankful of what you got . "segala kebaikan yang dkurniakan pada kita adalah milik Allah " - whatever the gift that we got is the property of Allah . Im not saying im good , im not saying i'm bad either . Im just me .
Peace out =)
